Nothing Lasts Forever

It is so boring here, same old faces day in day out.  I often fantasise about someone new to break up the monotony of daily life.  Lulu always comes sniffing around me, but she's not really interested, she's just a tease.
I try to ignore her when I can but sometimes my pent up urges take control of my...let's say brain.


Wait, Bill is coming with a stranger in tow but I can't quite see them, so I sit down with an audible sigh.  I hear the click, click, click of her shoes on the tiles and I look up to see them heading straight for me.  I look at my hair, what a mess, I must look a sight. Oh and my breath, too late bill is introducing me.

 "Lucy this is Ben."

 "Hi Ben." she coo's.

Before I know it, I'm embraced in a hug.  As she pulls back we catch each others eyes, just for a few seconds.  I can feel a chemistry between us.  Can she feel it too? God I hope so.  The scent of her perfume tickles my nose and reminds me off a fresh spring meadow.  There's a yearning in me for fresh air, outdoors, room to stretch and run.  When I waken from this reverie she is leaving deep in conversation with Bill.  What was I thinking she would never look twice at me.  

You will never believe it but Bill arranged has arranged for Lucy and I to go out together, he thinks we will be a perfect match.  I still can't believe my luck.  Lucy wants to walk down to the local the park and I don't protest, it's a nice evening.  We find a frisbee and Lucy suggests we try it.  Seems childish but I give a try. I had forgotten how much fun it is.  Lucy seems happy, she's smiling, chatting and her cheeks are flushed from all the exertion.  We lie down on the grass and she throws her arm over me.

I could stay like this forever.  

I can smell her sweet breath, shampoo and feel the warmth of her body beside mine.  She kisses me gently and we lie there, content in each others company.

I hate saying goodbye, watching her go. I feel like a piece of me is being ripped away with her.

We go out a few more times and before I realise what's happened I have moved in with her.  Not that I'm complaining, in fact I'm in a permanent state of euphoria.  Maybe I am getting ahead of myself but this was all her idea.  She is everything I have ever dreamed of. Life is perfect.  

We are inseparable for the next few months.  We go everywhere together, do everything together, except work obviously. I feel so jealous when she goes to work, I don't want to share her.  I wish we could just stay on the sofa cuddled up forever.  

Lucy has her friends over tonight so I'm ousted out to the kitchen.  I over hear a conversation their having.

"You need to get out more, it's not healthy for you to be with just Ben all the time, you need to get out and socialise again.  Don't you think it was all a bit quick?  Did you consider how big a commitment you were making?  You can't do anything without considering him first." 

Lucy does not refute these claims but stays silent.  I feel sick to my stomach, panic is crushing my chest.  What if she does not want me anymore, I cannot live without her.  She is my whole world.  

Over the next few weeks Lucy distances herself from me.  I'm not paranoid, our walks are few and far between, she is on the sofa I'm on the armchair, you know those tell tale signs.  How did it come to this, what did I do?  All I have ever done is smoother her with love and affection, was that wrong?  

I try to take a step back and give her some space.  I do not rush to greet her at the door but wait until she comes looking for me.  I spend more and more time isolating myself in the kitchen while she is cosy on the sofa.  Lucy does not appear to miss me, she never invites me in to snuggle up on the sofa.  She barely says two words to me unless it's to tell me to get out of the way or to stop bothering her.   I do not know how much longer we can live like this. Its's breaking my heart.  

Another month goes by and nothing changes we just grow further apart.  Then late one evening I hear the key in the door and two pair of feet walking in. I nudge the door open just enough to see Lucy locked in an embrace of a man I have never seen.  He is stroking her hair and she is leaning in to kiss him, I can't watch.  If I could cry, the tears would be streaming down my face.  I hang my head in despair and and turn back into the kitchen.  Realisation hits me Lucy no longer wants or needs me.  I served a purpose for a while but that void obviously doesn't need filled anymore or at least not by me.  I have out stayed my welcome here so I head towards the only thing that's truly mine.  I step into my basket and curl up with my bone.  Who ever said dogs have an easy life?